Experience During Intubation In Ventilator.
As the pandemic arrived people all around the world have been suffering adversely whether it's mentally or physically. Those who are covid positive with severe cases, I think they have found themselves in different dimensions; full of discomfort and suffering. Someone said when there is a will there is a way and I believe in it.
Today I'm going to share my experience in ventilator and those nasty ICU days.
Let's begin, it all started back on 4th Feb 2017 The Day when I was diagnosed with GBS(Guillain Barre Syndrome), and seeing my rapid weakness I was immediately admitted to the Intensive Care Unit.
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While shifting, on the way to the ICU bed. I saw some patient in critical condition, lying on a bed unconsciously. The environment of ICU forced me to turn cold and made me think about where I had come so far. Up to then, I was fully paralyzed below the neck; broken physically and mentally. Numerous question raised in my head. I was surprised, and shocked to had a sudden lockdown within myself. Meanwhile, my saturation level was degrading.
(Same day)
It was dawn and darkness was all about to set I could see that from a small window above my bed. Slowly, I needed an oxygen supply to breath. later on, I was set up on face mask with a high flow of oxygen. I was rarely breathing through my nose. All oxygen was inhaled by my mouth. Then, a Nasogastric(NG) tube was inserted for the feeding procedure. The tube was shifted down through my nose. I had a struggle then and thought it went hard but more worst than this was waiting for me.
It was around 8:30 in the evening. The nurse, monitoring me started to feed me but all of a sudden I was not able to breath. I developed progressive shortness of breath and my saturation level brokedown vigorously. Everything started to turn vague. The machine monitoring my body started alarming; heard some medical staff making a call for help where I was hardly breathing, trying to take a long deep breath but failing continuously. I panicked. I remember moving my head randomly with gasping gestures in deep suffocation.
Meantime, Someone tilted my head downward and a strange hard substance was placed in between my throat and mouth. (obstructing my tongue and was pushing sides of my throat). Later on, a endotracheal tube was inserted from mouth passing through my throat down to my chest. I could feel the sensation of moving tube causing massive discomfort, heaviness, pain, and suppressing my scream.
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My tear exploded, it was the excruciating movement of my life. I tried my best of what I could do, I fought till my last breathe from deep inside me. But everything was out of control for me.I was helpless. The blurry vision turned into a blackout. I got exhausted and all I was sensing; unbearable discomfort, the fast-low rhythm of heart, heavy head, suffocation, and was sweating. (In short, It felt like I was drowning).My body temperature was in peak and face turned red and hot. But my feet were cold and could feel stress in the flow of blood. Later, the numbness covered my whole body and felt like my heart took a pause. I thought this is death and I died. Neither there was long last deep breath to take nor I had strength with in me. At that moment I wanna see and feel my parents for one last time but ………………........(I turned unconscious)
When I woke up I found myself on a ventilator.
- (To Be Continued)
Next, is all about my experience in the ventilator and the consequences I confronted
Note:
•Severe cases of GBS is a medical emergency and needs constant Observation.
•When weakness reaches the diaphragm(the muscles responsible for respiration) one fails to oxygenate and needs support of ventilator to breath.
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